when the sadness of a suicide grips, sometimes the only way out is through action. i know personally the pain of not knowing the answers to the unanswerable question, "why?" making sense of it can be ellusive. the biggest need becomes the filling of the void left, and without anger. then acceptance. then peace, finding a 'new norm'. it takes time. and a lot of love.
husband's best friend from preschool through their twenties committed suicide unexpectedly, leaving a family bereft, dazed. my own father inadvertenly took his own life while attempting to end his, a strange twist of events that have forever rocked me to the core. again, those of us who remain are left to grapple, to understand, to make sense of the nonsensical, to heal.
the cannon family is reeling after the loss of their husband and father. i donated to the cannon family support fund, but my own funds are limited too so the repeated, nagging question remained: what else can i do? i cannot take away the hurt. i cannot bring him back. but i can support them and encourage others to do the same. i can pray for their peace of mind. i can take something of my own and turn it into something good and productive for them. christmas is coming. i truly want to add light to their holiday.
i've spent the past several years working with the dance studio our children call their own. i can take the book i had made for the directors and offer it as a commemorative gift for all the families of the school. i can turn all the proceeds for the month of november into a present for the cannon family's christmas gift buying. i can do something.
if anyone sees this erroneously as a marketing tactic i will feel sad and disgusted. this is not about me. this is about doing something for someone else because it is right and it is good. yes, take action. this is something i can do.
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